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That's it for now, as if any one will read it or care. :)

My Anthem Of the Sanguine Feast

Come fool behold, My malevolent song unfold Hark, the tune that rings Through ever plain In your mortal veins Awe, your veins So lavished with that crimson stain Come to me, Come now here It will not matter if you run now dear Come, come to me Come here And I’ll sing you a song, To end your fear I will sing it to the beat That you wet heart Continues to seek Come hear me sing, Sing the song of the scythe I’ll sing my song to end your strife And quench my thirst for your life The song that wins, As the arteries burst Come hear my pet, My dinner, slave Come to we and with my song Your flavor I will, O’ so savor …………………………… Prepare for the song The sound of the flesh As razor sharp teeth, rip and puncher beneath Prepare for the anthem Of the Sanguine Feast Did you see the fangs? I hope so… Come now Let’s eat!

The Drain of Life

I see the runoff from the storm drain Hear it rushing to the ground I can’t stop beholding This simple act unfolding In the twilit night I watch the water fall down Graceless to the ground I watch it flow over the old concrete And to my self I can’t help but think This is true the nature Of us human beings Once we were pure Small Droplets all so true Unplain and unperceivable Falling through air’s limbo stairs Then we were born And hit the dirty roof of life From crystal drizzle In to a muddy murk Turn into grimy streams Running on shingles of muck! Then it’s down, In time, a drain That has us all entwined Our disgusting bodies combined To form what is like, a rushing river Of murky, unclean, defiance Down that shaft we think were giants! Then we hit the ground And truth becomes much clearer We slowly trek Through a broad path unclear Yet we’re cowards and only move wish others We move in packs for fear! Then down another drain we fall This drain gated, Curved, unsure We fall into the all so putrid depths of age AGE ! The age Of putrid invariety When all will rot in body and brain Then the end When all is one for true We reach the sea NOW we see The truth of all so many things ……………………………….. And then it may Begin again For those of you Too foolish to understand

A question to the average man

Why cant you see! That dark light is free Well, there may be a fee Like your fragile sanity! Lovely lights And happy faces In all the corners of normal places Their minds a run Their plan afoot To live like zombies understood But I must say In that way happy they many stay But how, O how could you live that way! How happy could you stay! Ignorance it can be bliss But then why life would you live?

Dance with me, then you will see!

Come here darling Sit with me Come here love And watch with me Come here now And don’t be frightened By the tombstones, and the graves Do not fear for darkness, dear For the moon is full to light the way Come now, come with me And see for true the love, Come and watch the starry sky Come and watch now Come, and dance now With the dead Under the blue moon light Come with me and take my hand You have not lived, 'till you’ve lived with the dead! Come and sit down with the graves Come with me to deaths enclave Come and see then why I’m morbid Come with me I bid thee now To come with me Only so you might see What it truly means To be set free ……………………………… Dace now to the music of the moon Come and dace, Amongst the dead You say you can’t? To hell with you then!

For all botched biographies and symbols

I pity you I pity you You who have never felt the touch I pity you I pity you It gave me all so much It is not free It of all things I pity you I pity you And only fool Who’s never felt its ring hammer Never fallen to its depths I pity you I pity you Would make such an offensive address You, you fool, gawk can admire Genius? Ha You have not the right To speak of their minds You have no right To dictate there work’s confines I pity you I remember livening like you I pity you Wading through the greasy fog The swampish fog of ignorance! If you have never been so touched Never felt the MADNESS creeping up It is not evil This is no horror No half baked plot From a dreary loner This is a message To all of you You who don’t now True madness, true Genius, is not what they wrote Nor-they are If you knew If you knew What its like to be To be, in madness true ………………………………............. Take this not lightly It is true This poem and all of my life.. Just life To you My mentor Madness Yours so true… Ayerz (You are for now… Eternity)

The Garden of The Released

All I would If only I could Do in in my Time on this earth Is lay by the stones Those symbols of man I would lay on that ground The ground that defies Defies all reason With that feeling That feeling as you lay there Under the moon That we know Its like the ground is alive As though you sit on a monolithic cavern of peace The best feeling on earth, That lay’ s in the ground of the dead That place, you know? The one that at night You can feel at home At home, yes at last So peaceful, a bliss In brisk midnight air There could be, there is No purer a love than this ……………………………….......... Now that where here Let us now, never leave, This night, this dark The moon, these stars Let us lay here In this true place of love We’ll watch the star’s Until they fall Dance to the silence… Eternity

An Ode to Bullshit

All people know you All have seen you All have heard you And all have spoken A share about you in their lives We all know you Many live you Many more believe what you say You hold the torch That lights our unifying cesspit of “good wishes” Who’s greasy smoke brews not but dirt and pain and inhibition You are the power that can ruin with ease You break down walls And then cause millions to die of disease All fools bend down The lord Bullshit is making his mighty rounds!

The Question of Night

I have been asked, Why I still stay here Why, if I am so despaired by life Do I not turn to my worshipful death I have been ask And I have never answered in any words but these “I live only for the moments With my mistress , fairest of all the earthly truths You may know her by her name, The fair lady that is Night!” Never do they understand this, Never can they comprehend They don’t see the night as I do They cant feel her cool embrace Her hands of wind Her eyes of fog Her songs of silence Her skins of shadow They think I’m depressed That emotions I suppress Such a humorous thing, In the land of the blind Is it despair to see? ………………………………............... I think not, Although it hurts… Eternity

I Dream To Be the Wind (Nothingness)

It is my dream, The only wish I truly hold To be no one, To be the air, nameless, Unforetold To be as all In every place To be, to do And have no more an earthly face To be untouched, to be mundane To be the world, and nothingness in plane I want, I would To be the wind Turning, and blowing Around each bend! Ethereal, faceless Invisible, shameless! To be, to be! Nothing incarnate To be, to see All things; I’m Flying free! I dream, But in reality it seems I’ll have to stay here, Being me A clumsy mortal human being (Such thing, I am so terrible at being) ……………………………….... Till we throw off these chains To be yours in death, Eternity

Pointless!

Look a mile down the road I bide thee now to look! What do you see? Do you see a future lover? A lovely cherry tree? LOOK! Now, what do you see Do you see a road that’s fraught with tragedy? Or a path of cheery bliss? Look down that road…the only road, You now can walk What do you see there? All, ALL! That you see there is pointless! Pointless! What truth will be there, Among those fronds ? What purpose do you now see? There once, there was A greater path That you had but uneasily walked… Nepenthe! Alas Nepenthe that way! You traded it for comfort! Traded it for hoodwinked truth! I will not now, call out to you, I will never say your name I will, for now and ever Let you live in earthy shame! It is, it is For me so sad Do see another flower fall from bloom That which could have been a rose, With pedals black and rare Will turn in to a lazy Dreary cow eyed daisy So good bye Good bye, my friend I fear Our time is at an end You walk here pointless Thus thou are now, already dead And I…And I Will alone (Forever left alone by thee) Sit on a grave, And morn for all… Eternity

HOWL! HOWL!

Look up! Look now, with out a care Look at the night, Look to the sky In her sorrowful splendor Look and raise your head In this hour of living dead Feel the grass, the sand, concrete The lays beneath your feet Take in the smell, of evergreen trees Or breath the despair, of urban recluse Look at the moon And dance in her snare Feel the freedom The night mistress Feel the passion Of despair Feel excitement , in wherever’s night air Feel your sprit Cry with your soul Look the moon… And HOWL! HOWL! HOWL until, The night meets its doom ……………………………… Come, howl with me... Eternity

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Do not call me mad Do not call me crazy, You will never know! True stress Ha, and you mock me so I been through deep depressions, Urges of violence so deep SO deep to you I cant express Have you felt your hand instruct you brain? I have! I have know of known of lust, Ha, ha, ha And you say I have no control You have, for certain, never known! MADNESS! MADNESS! Haha my faithful friend You have moved me all so far, Pain unto my soul won’t bend ………………………………..... I have condemned my self This poem sucks I have completely failed to express Any things but a rant of mindlessness (Back to square one I guess)

Your would be poet…Eternity

I can’t write! I’m no poet! My feeble tries undoubtedly show it I’m done I’ve had it I’m up to here! I hate, I hate the living Their being near Why do I stay! No reason, no way! No rhyme to the rhythm! I’m in my own, perpetual prison IN my bars formed form my thought I can’t be what I should be, THAT IS ENOUGH! I have far too much time! With nothing to look forward to, Nothings there to comfort me! But O’ what could this all mean to you, Do you know what I feel?! what I mean?! Nothing true will come to me, I know what love is… As I know so many things! This!! THIS! This is the thing I can’t express. Do you know? What Its like to know, Know of things You’ve never felt or seen, nor done before! I can not say here Can’t use a word, I know To show you what it like to be, To see To feel To smell I am, I am, insanity ………………………………......... Until I break and seal fate, Your would be poet… Eternity

But Never (Forever) My darkness, My Dear

(An ode to my insanity's muse) Where are you? What are you? What I’m I? I know you… I love you And will never speak; why? For love, true love, is but a lie Not that it’s untrue Just O it lasts For all too short a time I will never hold you We will never be I will never teach you Although so much, One such as you, Could learn form me I am alone and alone will and must stay I know that you Like other do Will turn away For this path so hopeful You’ll fall from it now, any day I know I could love you, You know, for now, what it means But I won’t, for you can’t see Truth, it means the same to you As it once did to me I remember, long ago Although it was not long in time When I was just like, you are now, O’ I do wish I that could just die If only you could know If I could lose the words and simply tell If I could show you I could help And not your person dispel I love you, I truly do And whether you now or never know Know one thing, one thing alone It pains me, A pain one such as you, My love Could never hope too know People cry with depression People preaching purpose like fools People lay claim to power I have more than all of these fools I exist, It seems now For truth And this…alone My love, I wish that your True wishes be quelled And you would truly have love So these thoughts they would not swell I hate this all! I’m dieing my dear Not lovely death but a cancerous fear I can't take this more! I cant stand to stay To know, all these things I see…dismayed You can not see me and we can not be, You would not know me or recognize me I know who you are, and I love you so much But never (Forever!) Your lovely true soul will I touch ………………………………...... Find your way my darkness Yours forever, and never… Eternity

An Ode to Fate

Of you, of you My fickle brother I have always been intune I have known you throughout my life Felt your tendrils creeping through It is strange To name you here, To call you out When not graced by your formless face I know now more of you Than I thought could ever be true It’s funny how things fly For at this time, you push me rarely high Like you did when I was young I have learned so much from you Even now, with subtle form you help me see the truth I owe so much, so much to you With pain, and circumstance You give things that I could never reach With out the help of you While I will never know, just how you hail Or whether you are me, or I am you I will now thus pay tribute to you! For every thing you helped me do I now tribute this ode to you ………………………………. Fate

By Lonely Decree

Love goes with longing As bread goes with wine Passion is painful As I look in her eyes Perfectly formed Is her earthly form But deep in her eyes Tis’ where beauty resides I know that her beauty , Doesn’t belong in this place! Nor in my arms, Not even my eyes Yet her rare heart I know, in dismay It is mine Too much, too much Is her beauty For a human like me She can not be here, The goddess with me And though it so pains me I stand by my lonely decree While she would love me And we know we both do I sit here now lonely While she is wasted, On humans like you To the one that deserves more, I haplessly hope for you ………………………………..... Eternity

I must, so sadly, for love…Requiem

Requiem, requiem I dream, I dream I dream of crypts and shadows Of faces dead and bones time striped of marrow I dream, I dream Requiem, requiem Requiem, for faces of the past, Of dreams, and places That no longer last I dream, requiem Requiems I dream For all the living That have yet to pass For all the pains and misery There small live will compress Requiems I dream Dreams I requiem The dream of hope Of Happiness and love I mope! I requiem, (Not to death but life, more fare it seems!) For all of those Who live in a dream And I dream Of love, and those who know what it means For all of you, And for me… Till death sets us free I must, so sadly, for love… Requiem ………………………….. Until the end, Eternity

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So much cut and past!!!!! Only a few pages to go...

A bide Farwell to all the Leaves

In a clearing lavished with leaves In the dark, under stars Brisk air, and gusts of wind My heart my soul Is moving as the blowing trees they bend I see all that I’ve been And all I have become I see the things ahead of me I see them, and my hope recedes I do not need to be here Do not want to stay I hate the living I damn there sun I see things too clearly They seem perverts, every one! I don’t see time, Not as its suppose to seem, I don’t distinguish its little lines The future, the past, Meaningless, trivial at best I see all that, Can come to be, I see the future in facets I see and I believe That all humans would be better off In a grave and feeding the trees I sit amidst the dieing trees I see reflections in a small and mudy stream I see and I reflect Relish the cold Smell the death Of sweet fall So bitterly fresh I sit in awe As this season claims my breath Madness claws It may have the fighting edge ‘Sanity’ (I call it a technicality) Is much more fleeting than it used to be Now that, I know what love is… I also know desire I know so many things, O in so many way I don’t think I can express What its like to be, To think this way I know of things I do not feel I remember feelings, I’ve never felt I know of attractions That me do not compel I have so much, Too much Crammed inside my corporeal skull I truly wish in this season (which I do so love) In this clearing On this vary night Amongst the leaves And In the wind That I could at last Give my body it’s final, fatal dance A dance to deal with a all grieves And to seal time ( I hate its pompous glee!) To seal what is mine… With death’s reprieve ………………………….. I bide Farwell to all the Leaves, Eternity

Fall into the realm of death

I want to fall through the floor Into the ground Fall into a endless void And spin within its endless curtain Fall forever blackness and silence No hunger no pain No crime and no stains I want to just fall through the floor In to the realm of death …………………………….. O how I long for nothingness

The Needle's Sting

Blood drips down your too young hands A Rose thorns deep Its pedals red Dirty grime A party dress In a bathroom In distress Heart brake Loves toll to take Last night here Then your free Free to a shackled insanity Tears and puke Make-up for your night of truth Drain the glass Drown your past Forget your lover Forget your test Forget your lost Forget until the pains regress Cook the thing You cant forget One last trip Into your place Where truth is with out mask This times the last More than enough To end the pain at last Find the vain Relish the needle's sting Push the plunger Fell the rush And smile when your brain turns to mush

The Human Smell

I can’t stay here No reason for me What the hell could I want here or need? Happiness is but a lie Crated by the naïve You think these things are strong and true But all they are body values Sex intercomplexed In all your minds, hexed All your lies of love aren’t true I hate the lies I hate the filth I sense on all of you You tell me to life And say I’m a coward I don’t care how it ends But end it will soon In my death ,or all of you (You can not be inhumane, All you fools are animals in plain) I hate your stench I hate your smell And if my point I have not yet spelled I will explain it here and true I HATE EVERY THING TO DO WITH YOU! I hate the human sex I hate the human smell ………………………………............... To all the lies… Eternity

No love in Purgatory

I am alone No one is now Nor ever will be Here with me I dream of love I know its face But I will be I know But ever, out of its grace No one is my equal No one that can think So I would have nothing more to do With that human stew Nothing to do with their foolish thoughts Nothing more do I want Than solace and silence Give me a place in the dark Give me a place where the sun will not stalk, A place, Where no one can talk A place that is quiet A place that is still A place where I will Have nothing to fulfill Love is so lost No one, truly who knows its touch I will, it seems Forever be In this In my Purgatory In this I will be Till death sets me free ……………………………….... No reason to live, Eternity

I wish that I, not you Weren’t here

Alone Is where I’m meant to be I hate these people I hate there hearts and earthly scents I hate the noise I hate there thoughts I hate these people There lies of love I hate these people Wearing loves fickle gloves I don’t want To stay here now It’s not where I belong If not dead then I should be In seclusion with my misery A misery of hope unmatched To watch natures beauty unabashed No need for flesh Cast down that love For while with you It may be true Such things like beauty Are not meant to last I don’t need those memories I have painful repoire enough I should not be here I should not stay Even you, are forever away You who I, know so well You who I love and fear I wish that things were not a are I wish that I, not you Weren’t here

No Word Does Justice to the Night

This was to be a poem Of my night in bloom This was to be a poem For my nights dim hue This was to be a poem To the lovely moon This was to be a poem For rain clouds cast against Its midnight blue This was to be, For my night This was to be For its sun cast doom But this I can not bring, my self to write For every word to my night Can never be, Will never be, So just and right, As that of my holy night

Anti-social?

IN a dark corner untold Lies a truth not meant for the mind Not here now But that choice was mine I cry And I cry But I know that in this time I AM ALONE No one is special around me Just more of the same With life’s propaganda rotting there brain There minds are not open There thoughts they run weak Always obsessing There sun that’s repressing All I know is not meant for here Not meant for man Not meant to be sane Anti-social my ass I live for my pain My loneliness drives A truth not contrived With no doubt I know These ants and there sun Live in a haze So leave me alone To my antisocial ways

When I Die

When I die No eye will tear No mourner cry No sadness will thus come No one will stop No one will miss No one will be despaired No requiem No service to be held No eye will brook Not candle nor crematorium Will shine! Nothing will be When I am dead And doubtless all these things That I just said Will follow my fallen form But to me None of these things, Nothing here Will ever again be done! ………………………………............. Has never been…Eternity

Does liquor know the time of day?

Does liquor know the time of day? Depression know, to stop or stay? Does the day say no To times of strife? Tell me not now what I need Nor tell me what I should Do not judge my bottled days! Do not damn my liquor haze But hark now what I say It’s the booze Not the your sunny lands blue days That keeps me this true Keeps me from lies That keeps my mind, That keeps my neck From your lands Unholy bright noose

Does liquor know the time of day?

Does liquor know the time of day? Depression know, to stop or stay? Does the day say no To times of strife? Tell me not now what I need Nor tell me what I should Do not judge my bottled days! Do not damn my liquor haze But hark now what I say It’s the booze Not the your sunny lands blue days That keeps me this true Keeps me from lies That keeps my mind, That keeps my neck From your lands Unholy bright noose

I remember

I remember All that’s been All that will but ever be I remember And I forgot All that maters to me I know that voice I know that face But through it all I see no more Its earthly grace

Human Fines of Washed-up Minds

Temporal stares Time as teared Why must I rot When time has past? Now I find, agast The world has changed too But human kind Together I find Will not pay time Its tribute due We will not sway But time will say “Its time to repay And face your deadly due!” Ignorance and arrogance The preacher fearith what is new And so with parting words I cry As you watch my lonely eye “See what you are thou barbarous fends, And let this martyrs words be seen! Scorn no thought and call my kind not evil more, Thou arnt the one who burnt my body on thy ‘holly’ shores!”

Blood Bathed Memories

Blood a crimson Roses peals red So wet and soft So thin and sweet They cover all this floor Where in another time We did meet This floor was not so lovely Not as today We lived fear He lived in moan And this place with guilt Did make us groan We two where young We two alone Till one day By chance, we sat betrothed Twas not our choice Those foolish being The day we meet There mirror broke The day they us, wed There lives they took In a year They lived in fear Our magic would not brook No innocence, nor impudence Are dark magic overlook But my dear They came I fear They took thy for the cook For that they burned O be sure They where gutted true And now in there blood There is a chance For me to remember you!

Race of the Free

Leather desk And office aroma Ironed shirt And sweaty face Deadline due A thick cologne Some where else There rings a phone Corner office Big pay check Two young kids A house bound wife Find the mirror See your strife You studied hard And when to school Got up on every Sunday Fridays too Here you succeed But nothing you will truly be You’ve no love Not one that’s true You know not O what you want Lust and pleasure? Loss and pain? Poor in power Rich by right Where did it turn? From sooth and free What went sour It all was all yours By a elders decree You worked to death Your grades, your faith It always would impress! No hole is this thing Not as easy, not as pure Your trapped in side of a dark fear And truly it is you who is ’ought to here So now meet the face of the race, The race of the free The race you now see When you pulith the trigger nee!

Lies… were blessings in disguise?

Reflect Take back to your past Every smile Every stage All the lies And all the rage A broken heart A broken chair Yet all the things in past must seem So happy a thing A time I was not like now A time when “true” was known All smiles So like a child A long lost lover Or red hot luste It all seems so happy… Compared to the now Compared to the me ………………………………............. Lies… were blessings in disguise?

Wander roam and search your curse

Wander roam and search All through life A lonely curse A little girl To god she prays Thinks that lie will save Teen age ‘chick’ On the phone Get drunk and sick Sex and ‘love’ The lip gloss covered lips College books Intriguing looks Party some and study more Look to science “That truth so poor!” Middle age A ladies cage Sophistication Like egotistical, masturbation Old and gray Now living in god fearing ways You pray and pray Fear that death is not a clean buffet Death bed roses Gothic curtains Pale skin And eyes all dimmed Not truth but peace You know like kin

Wander roam and search your curse

Wander roam and search All through life A lonely curse A little girl To god she prays Thinks that lie will save Teen age ‘chick’ On the phone Get drunk and sick Sex and ‘love’ The lip gloss covered lips College books Intriguing looks Party some and study more Look to science “That truth so poor!” Middle age A ladies cage Sophistication Like egotistical, masturbation Old and gray Now living in god fearing ways You pray and pray Fear that death is not a clean buffet Death bed roses Gothic curtains Pale skin And eyes all dimmed Not truth but peace You know like kin

Who shot who?

Who shot who? Did you shoot me? Or I shoot you? As the shot rings down the road As the bullet takes its toll Truly it must be known That from my dreams, The bullets stream Its there currents That has my mind astray Who shot who? Who deserved the blow? Is it me for not, a taking part As your foolish eyes, See the face of a common race To frightened, to smart To with me take part Who’s dead now? Who’s heart’s a hole? So sad a toll, Yet you know That I too took the blow

What tarnish the leaf

What tarnish the leaf? If it drops in the fall What does it matter, If its death is today For all seasons, They must but all change

Bleak lies in disguise

The future is bleak I’m too tired to think I don’t want your sympathy I don’t want your stares I don’t need you to say, I’m not happy this way Don’t tell what matters You blind foolish being Don’t tell me my place You withered old fiend I’ve dropped all the secrets Dropped all the lies And now me you try Mind hidden Disguised!

Identity

Identity! So strange That futile thing What a lie for you to think That I am I As in your eye Truly, thy art, a arrogant thing! Why must you call me by a name? Such placement Is a shame! Why must you know my vocation? I need from you no indignation! I don’t need your mind Nor incarceration! I hate your cow eyes I hate your bright sky! Now leave me alone! I dam these nations!

War as a Jungle, in a form or two

Smell the jungle Feel the pain Dance about in acid rain Blast the foe And meet the face They Order thee here And now with words they play All the while You kill more Just to live And the friendly faces seem, To float away O all those faces frowns and stares you will forever see Till your death envelops thee

Two Short Poems

Burn the figure Sear the flesh Take me from my mortal distress Bund-up Beauty Lonely eyes and bund-up hair Not many see thy fair They see your lie So freely given You hold in the love But beauty is there

That tattoo

That tattoo From long ago I see its time Of hope anew And another, a lover Woe, thou art a fool That tattoo From time unknown Its word I give no thought Another, in a fierce and fighting form I will questions thee now not

Pure is your lust

Now you lust for human touch But you art not unpure In your time and place I see It’s right for you, You lonely prudish being

Starlight young, lies that you know

The starlight young in sunlight retreats In to the lies and easy ties, a truth that is defined Foolish things, that fondle and flatter Small you swim in lies You could be O but so much more! You hide your face A lie you show for foolish embrace Though here I am I know some part of you sees These things, don’t make you happy Starlight born in sunlight recedes Too long, to weak Your chance for love and life is crushed, so obscene On you will go Nothing true will you know Till death lets you free No star the more will you be No individual point in a lovely scene But a speck in that whole of a suns false glow

Crimson on the lips (Vampire poem)

Crimson on the lips Smell the pumping pulsing flame Past the tissue in crimson stains Bite the finger Rip the vain And taste the love So salty and sweat Taste the rush As the crimson and lips meet

Life, life of my own

Life is no blessing Death is for me Last line of sanity Abandoning me My material urges Fighting for life What life to fight for? I can just go On, on, on No, o no This, is not so The pain of just living It burns Burns It burns at my soul Bonds forged by My mind Dammed by this life But on I must go Why is this so? I can not know This pain is my own Shackled by body The mind strains against its chains This life is my own This hell is my own May death let me go. From this hell This hell This hell of my own ………………… Eternity

Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness; Is this true, the right of man?

Life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness Is this true, the right of man? The first is but our curse The curse of man Though this you might Not understand The seconds is given But afforded by few Its price it lies in in mental value (So rare a resource, it is know but to few!) Happiness, ha! Thou art so hapless Those that pursue Are simply blind fools ( Sadly these are not few)

Truths a comedy

Truths a comedy Of the cruelest sort Lie is such a word as die Not wrong Just humanly misunderstood

Too know is to love? If to know is too love And to love is to know Why is it then that lovers Never do know

The Enemies be Damned

Who must we fight? What is terror and who is Ist? Is It truth or lies that run are lives? Who is what and why is where? WHY MUST I STAY HERE! WHY MUST I BE HERE! WHAT IS THE POINT! JUST LET ME DIE AND ENEMIES BE DAMNED!!!!!

To my night

To my night no mortal can compare No fleshy bosom or tender lips Can vie with a tile touched by nights sweet kiss To my night no passion can go near I would gladly never see a human being again If only I could stay under my lovely night bright starry sky When out with my night every thing it is so clear But when she sleeps that is when I fear

Fighting not too Lie-ve

Fighting not too Lie-ve Damn this world and its strife All that I see are fools too foolish to see They all pack tightly in to lines For a piece of poison pie Simple minds and blinded fools What the hell are they trying too prove! That they can be happier than me? Just by being foolish, filthy fools! But what O what in this world can I do! What can I do not to live there lie! Selfish freaks and unruly basted How can this I fight! Just stay alone inside my mind? Or start my own strain of pathetic lies! So much time I have left here Far more than is behind I truly can not suffer this torment all of that time! To fate I pray Please take me away I can not bare this madness for that long a time

The Blood Whole Beings

(Vampire poem) This nights its cold I am dieing of thirst As I wait here for you Not knowing what I should do In the air I smell your sent Your close, I can sense With a smile just like a child You walk under the streetlight with me So soft your skin So warms your face You embrace me tightly Love me, despite my race You touch my face You lingers on my lips Your happiness fades “Your starving!” you say Quickly, with no though for you being You show me your neck And tell me too feed I am your life You’ve no love for those living souls You don’t yearn for thieir touch Even though they want it so much You I saved and you I loved On you I am afraid too feed What would it be, if it became me But I know If I do not I will be the one to be lost So slowly I do what I must So long I have lust And I know deep down this is what you want My lips they pass on you lovely neck I hear your heart Beating so fast And as I bite I hear you gasp Are beings, they are one Now you love me but more! My being its not dominate But is loving with you Completely you give in too me You love how it hurts You love being one with me NO! Your heart beat it slows With all of my love And all my strength I pull my mouth away So you lay passed out but live till another day Never have I know such love! With you I will forever stay Until it is that you pass away But I know it would be too selfish of me To convent my god and defile his reign But you must know When you die I will to then Pass away

The Wizards Lie

(Writen on Sep. 11 2005, at 1:05 am) Twas but hours from now A few years ago That unbeknownst to the town A terror was about to unfold Hell bought the building As the phantom attacked Out of the blue Another came through After the fact The villagers must act They point, they, face Too whoever bears the fanatical face Of the phantom attackers But mistakes they do make They just start spreading the hate The wizard sits up in his ivory tower Seeing a scheme to fortify his power So into the chieftains ear he whispers Come now, you know who did this here The chiefs gone made His people sick and dieing Yet after all the wizards lies May kill us all

Eyes are not made too know like touch

My pain it is All that I feel Eyes are not made too know like touch So sad my time So pointless my pain All I must do, Is just be the same Through this terrible, terrible Clear sunny day I await the twilit winds of autumn Though I know with them will come more pain So lonely is that lovely time of year The autumn winds burning the back of my brain Those colder mornings I morn for my sanity now Eyes are not made too know like touch The mind should not know love in this world today! Depression So lonely is my liefe today

Yet you know, I love you so

Through all of the suffering All of the pain Was my love Whose love Is not a love in plain Never have we been together Never have we held each other No sign that’s clear Yet I know, you know I love you so A love that is, not meant to be Within are lives of foolish beings Yet I know, you know You love me so A love like our no betrayal can take All sorrow makes our bond but harder to break But through it all I do wish That you, if only once, I could kiss Just so that you would know As you know, that I know, that you know That I do… O love you so ………………………………..................................... Together but Never

From caged to enslaved

Dammed is this world Its people obscene All rolling over Groveling , please! The weaklings The righteous Live lies in a dream From caged to enslaved That’s what’s wrought of mortal birth Thier life it is there time portrayed Nothing beyond, they never change Born in with in a servitude Taking changes with there social groups Like flies within a flock they flutter All the same as one another In time they will be What I can already see We all have seen it all before One day you are a child true The next its sex A “lovers” stew Next you find your self anew! But its all the same its still just you Your body grows your minds the same Looking for love Not knowing what it is Married now and you have kids You serve false faith And a lie you will forever live So much pain What have I to gain My path it hurts more than the rest Yet compared to you I’m not depressed O death O death Release me from distress

Living as a Granite Slab

If all of man just turned to stone Who would be there left to moan If I became a granite slab Would it mater who is sad? If man became a high up cloud We would then be but one and the same No gender nor race Would get in are way If all of us humans just turned into diamonds Who would be then the rich and the poor? Who would have to suffer through The agonies we always do So while all these things they will come true I must still live here Does this make sense to you?

Accompanied

I see with in a eerie dream Landscape of beauty that is so obscene The worlds dead building crumbled nothing living remains No people No plants Just black rocks And greasy blue sky Nothing is left here to love or hate No one to breath this poison air Never have I know this before… Now that I am not alone

Times a purgatory

Why is time such a thing to use mortal beings? Do we fear with each passing year a part of life is lost? What is important in the past? What will happen in the future? All these things are futile, fear incarnate Is all we see in the here and now? Is all that we can be deiced when were young? Or is all that maters when were old and we can do no wrong? Most men’s view on death is mine on life in fear Lost within there own lies of life Not seeing what is really here

Cattle’s Call

Broken is my human heart The world around me is falling apart Unthinking is the average man Those in power thinking hard Yet their thoughts they are the same They are lost souls who need some one to blame So many people so few are unique Like cattle in the slaughterhouse They live and then they die All are the same So little will change So sad it is to know As I walk among these foolish souls That if they could all know We would all be so happy but NO! Yet most people are to weak To pathetic to think They turn to the lies They use a disguise Yet the truth is always same That never will change Now the future is bleak But am happy to think That in time they will see Even if by then It wont effect me ……………………………….................. Release

The Moon and the Tyrant

The night air it hits my face Maybe the worlds not a bad place Maybe this life, it can be good If all of this where understood Maybe I should not give up Maybe life is not screwed up Maybe there is love for me A love like nights star covered dream My love its found! As my eyes they tear Such a beauty is lovely and near My love its name it is the moon Sadly this loves not meant to last As I sat there all aghast As I see the murder of the sky A evil fire that will not retire Drowns my nightly sky My moon is gone a tyrant is now in control The sun is up my soul is dead And all I'm thinking, all I see Is lies of light and pointless things

As goes the time

Rises the sun And falls it All is the same As nothing can change Bound by life’s chains Passions are none Has life begun? Or is all as one? No love for the sun I must become? My Peace it Lays in the grave This is the world Where the ignorant thrive And all others die In Mind or body. Is not this torment Formed by my flesh? In death there is freedom In life theirs fatigue Can’t I forget All that I’ve questioned? O no, o no But life will just go Till I’m freed of its hold Death will forgive us Ignorant or not With its eternal release And ever long peace

Blind ranting

Life Life O’ why do I stay? In this sea I can’t just BE No o’ no You must live Within this lie Good thoughts o yes But just behind is the light That reveals the lie A light so bright It can not shine But to those Who’s minds are not blind Blindness from the seeds of the sun The sun who, who can tell you what’s wrong The lies of love They cant see its grace O no, o no Just me within My solemn place I can not live like that! O no, my torments preferred Rather than be like them

A Dream of a Life

To live in a dream The world is yours Love that’s awake Real is right Right is the real To live in a dream Were nothing is set Where life, it is lived And that’s all there is Love, and life Color and beauty You’re the center story The holy grace A childly dream Of love… And life O’ that real life ………………………………….. Live? But not so.

A Love that is Dammed

Beauty is so queer So wretched So feared So lovely So good So brilliant O NO! I will not give way! No happiness stays But within her eyes! O why, O why! Why is this torture This tearing at heart Once it begins It’s never to far Your mind it is on That beautiful face No wrinkles No blemish in sight And when you are with her Your heart It is light But when she is gone Gone like the rest It will leave you depressed For this, it is love Not that old lie That lies the flesh But the key to the mind A dead key To a dead hope In this world today How I mope How I mope ……………………….. release

Can I be? Can’t I be? ALL WILL BE.

Beauty I see in life Not as others see it One such as me O’ HOW, I can see! I don’t love her bosom But her lovely lips Not instinctual but extinctual O’ how I lust NO not the same fuss That radiant face Hell in my mind From the lack of that angels grace No love for the sun That ‘lovely’ illusion It’s the night’s beauty Keeps me this sane This is to MAD Why can’t I see? As others can see Why can’t I be As others can be? Why can’t I live? Why can’t I love? Why can’t I act? As the other all can Why can’t I Just fall through the floor To paradise shores A paradise that will be All that I need All that can be And that will be Is in that paradise YOU SEE? My peace, and my release

Life, love, death, peace

Round and round the world goes All things are known But nothing is learned Normal is the norm Difference! What a Difference My mind my thoughts O’ I wish I could explain All my understanding But no Low and behold The holy grail The chalice of life I take it all in stride All that is bad All my despair And all my false joys I can’t know it all! O’ why? O’ why? Yet this is my world The world as is No haze or praise I see its futility I see the paradise My loves are my own My hates are my own Not the thoughts of the mad But the mind of the gifted THIS IS HELL But heavenly still I can be one more I can’t me the same I can’t be like every one else NO O’ no life, love, Death, peace ………………………………….. Eternity

Lies of light and life

Lies of light and life To live a lie, o’ that life Happiness in suns bright kiss So sad that I Can never be About that glee My path that is a solemn road A road to truth I guess The pain it will pass When I release this hold Of my truth untold We will meet again From my own hand my tortures wrought My madness is self-taught Pain unneeded but to me It must be done I live not for light I live only so my song is sung A song that’s truth is still unknown A truth… So trivial a pursuit Life, not but lies and strife My truth is a life But not a life Death is my truth A life I must live To know my truth that’s untold ………………………………….. Knowledge of a nightmare

Dead Mans Dreams

The dead man dreams Of the purist thing No lust or love To blind his burned out eyes No beam of light Nor fear of the dark Will bother him, death is his place Death in his face ………………………………………. Peace and solace

In the face of death

I walk this decrepit tide With a steady stride No fear of doom No thoughts of damnation No light covers all No lovely reunion My goal is not good Or evil No All things must change Yet All things will stay No change to it all As universe over Nothings the mater As all things decay And People are still to this day Avoiding the peace of its grasp Not something to rush But to love, With out lust, as Death will say come If your time is done No evil no good No darkness no light No fear and no love But not, Not at all Fear not the face But the knife in the hand Fear not the silence But hear all the music! If dead is the sun Thou shall dance in the moon If you don’t dance at all You will dance with your “doom” This life I lead I don’t walk without question I question its reasons I question its life But alas I must live Buy why I don’t know Death it will take me When its winds blow All that is here All that will be All is forgiven All will go on All can be seen So have not a fear When in the face of death. The face of death Eternity

Life in the Lifeless

Tearful eyes and grave décor In a place that’s seen many a death before The widows grieve and lovers moan And gaze upon the casket’s sole occupant Not caring for his peace With their sobs and silent prayers Damming death, for this affair But I cry out into that silent roar Dam death not thus For this is his life! Not his death The final word, that is his story So do not grieve or moan Your loves not lost inside his tomb But resting there He has finally escaped his doom! But no one seems to listen The sobs go on and on No love for the life That is death No beauty when the songs are sung From greedy fiend to loving mother All receive its blessing Peace at last For in its grasp there lies... Release

Poems to come...