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That's it for now, as if any one will read it or care. :)

My Anthem Of the Sanguine Feast

Come fool behold, My malevolent song unfold Hark, the tune that rings Through ever plain In your mortal veins Awe, your veins So lavished with that crimson stain Come to me, Come now here It will not matter if you run now dear Come, come to me Come here And I’ll sing you a song, To end your fear I will sing it to the beat That you wet heart Continues to seek Come hear me sing, Sing the song of the scythe I’ll sing my song to end your strife And quench my thirst for your life The song that wins, As the arteries burst Come hear my pet, My dinner, slave Come to we and with my song Your flavor I will, O’ so savor …………………………… Prepare for the song The sound of the flesh As razor sharp teeth, rip and puncher beneath Prepare for the anthem Of the Sanguine Feast Did you see the fangs? I hope so… Come now Let’s eat!

The Drain of Life

I see the runoff from the storm drain Hear it rushing to the ground I can’t stop beholding This simple act unfolding In the twilit night I watch the water fall down Graceless to the ground I watch it flow over the old concrete And to my self I can’t help but think This is true the nature Of us human beings Once we were pure Small Droplets all so true Unplain and unperceivable Falling through air’s limbo stairs Then we were born And hit the dirty roof of life From crystal drizzle In to a muddy murk Turn into grimy streams Running on shingles of muck! Then it’s down, In time, a drain That has us all entwined Our disgusting bodies combined To form what is like, a rushing river Of murky, unclean, defiance Down that shaft we think were giants! Then we hit the ground And truth becomes much clearer We slowly trek Through a broad path unclear Yet we’re cowards and only move wish others We move in packs for fear! Then down another drain we fall This drain gated, Curved, unsure We fall into the all so putrid depths of age AGE ! The age Of putrid invariety When all will rot in body and brain Then the end When all is one for true We reach the sea NOW we see The truth of all so many things ……………………………….. And then it may Begin again For those of you Too foolish to understand

A question to the average man

Why cant you see! That dark light is free Well, there may be a fee Like your fragile sanity! Lovely lights And happy faces In all the corners of normal places Their minds a run Their plan afoot To live like zombies understood But I must say In that way happy they many stay But how, O how could you live that way! How happy could you stay! Ignorance it can be bliss But then why life would you live?

Dance with me, then you will see!

Come here darling Sit with me Come here love And watch with me Come here now And don’t be frightened By the tombstones, and the graves Do not fear for darkness, dear For the moon is full to light the way Come now, come with me And see for true the love, Come and watch the starry sky Come and watch now Come, and dance now With the dead Under the blue moon light Come with me and take my hand You have not lived, 'till you’ve lived with the dead! Come and sit down with the graves Come with me to deaths enclave Come and see then why I’m morbid Come with me I bid thee now To come with me Only so you might see What it truly means To be set free ……………………………… Dace now to the music of the moon Come and dace, Amongst the dead You say you can’t? To hell with you then!

For all botched biographies and symbols

I pity you I pity you You who have never felt the touch I pity you I pity you It gave me all so much It is not free It of all things I pity you I pity you And only fool Who’s never felt its ring hammer Never fallen to its depths I pity you I pity you Would make such an offensive address You, you fool, gawk can admire Genius? Ha You have not the right To speak of their minds You have no right To dictate there work’s confines I pity you I remember livening like you I pity you Wading through the greasy fog The swampish fog of ignorance! If you have never been so touched Never felt the MADNESS creeping up It is not evil This is no horror No half baked plot From a dreary loner This is a message To all of you You who don’t now True madness, true Genius, is not what they wrote Nor-they are If you knew If you knew What its like to be To be, in madness true ………………………………............. Take this not lightly It is true This poem and all of my life.. Just life To you My mentor Madness Yours so true… Ayerz (You are for now… Eternity)

The Garden of The Released

All I would If only I could Do in in my Time on this earth Is lay by the stones Those symbols of man I would lay on that ground The ground that defies Defies all reason With that feeling That feeling as you lay there Under the moon That we know Its like the ground is alive As though you sit on a monolithic cavern of peace The best feeling on earth, That lay’ s in the ground of the dead That place, you know? The one that at night You can feel at home At home, yes at last So peaceful, a bliss In brisk midnight air There could be, there is No purer a love than this ……………………………….......... Now that where here Let us now, never leave, This night, this dark The moon, these stars Let us lay here In this true place of love We’ll watch the star’s Until they fall Dance to the silence… Eternity

An Ode to Bullshit

All people know you All have seen you All have heard you And all have spoken A share about you in their lives We all know you Many live you Many more believe what you say You hold the torch That lights our unifying cesspit of “good wishes” Who’s greasy smoke brews not but dirt and pain and inhibition You are the power that can ruin with ease You break down walls And then cause millions to die of disease All fools bend down The lord Bullshit is making his mighty rounds!

The Question of Night

I have been asked, Why I still stay here Why, if I am so despaired by life Do I not turn to my worshipful death I have been ask And I have never answered in any words but these “I live only for the moments With my mistress , fairest of all the earthly truths You may know her by her name, The fair lady that is Night!” Never do they understand this, Never can they comprehend They don’t see the night as I do They cant feel her cool embrace Her hands of wind Her eyes of fog Her songs of silence Her skins of shadow They think I’m depressed That emotions I suppress Such a humorous thing, In the land of the blind Is it despair to see? ………………………………............... I think not, Although it hurts… Eternity

I Dream To Be the Wind (Nothingness)

It is my dream, The only wish I truly hold To be no one, To be the air, nameless, Unforetold To be as all In every place To be, to do And have no more an earthly face To be untouched, to be mundane To be the world, and nothingness in plane I want, I would To be the wind Turning, and blowing Around each bend! Ethereal, faceless Invisible, shameless! To be, to be! Nothing incarnate To be, to see All things; I’m Flying free! I dream, But in reality it seems I’ll have to stay here, Being me A clumsy mortal human being (Such thing, I am so terrible at being) ……………………………….... Till we throw off these chains To be yours in death, Eternity

Pointless!

Look a mile down the road I bide thee now to look! What do you see? Do you see a future lover? A lovely cherry tree? LOOK! Now, what do you see Do you see a road that’s fraught with tragedy? Or a path of cheery bliss? Look down that road…the only road, You now can walk What do you see there? All, ALL! That you see there is pointless! Pointless! What truth will be there, Among those fronds ? What purpose do you now see? There once, there was A greater path That you had but uneasily walked… Nepenthe! Alas Nepenthe that way! You traded it for comfort! Traded it for hoodwinked truth! I will not now, call out to you, I will never say your name I will, for now and ever Let you live in earthy shame! It is, it is For me so sad Do see another flower fall from bloom That which could have been a rose, With pedals black and rare Will turn in to a lazy Dreary cow eyed daisy So good bye Good bye, my friend I fear Our time is at an end You walk here pointless Thus thou are now, already dead And I…And I Will alone (Forever left alone by thee) Sit on a grave, And morn for all… Eternity

HOWL! HOWL!

Look up! Look now, with out a care Look at the night, Look to the sky In her sorrowful splendor Look and raise your head In this hour of living dead Feel the grass, the sand, concrete The lays beneath your feet Take in the smell, of evergreen trees Or breath the despair, of urban recluse Look at the moon And dance in her snare Feel the freedom The night mistress Feel the passion Of despair Feel excitement , in wherever’s night air Feel your sprit Cry with your soul Look the moon… And HOWL! HOWL! HOWL until, The night meets its doom ……………………………… Come, howl with me... Eternity

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Do not call me mad Do not call me crazy, You will never know! True stress Ha, and you mock me so I been through deep depressions, Urges of violence so deep SO deep to you I cant express Have you felt your hand instruct you brain? I have! I have know of known of lust, Ha, ha, ha And you say I have no control You have, for certain, never known! MADNESS! MADNESS! Haha my faithful friend You have moved me all so far, Pain unto my soul won’t bend ………………………………..... I have condemned my self This poem sucks I have completely failed to express Any things but a rant of mindlessness (Back to square one I guess)

Your would be poet…Eternity

I can’t write! I’m no poet! My feeble tries undoubtedly show it I’m done I’ve had it I’m up to here! I hate, I hate the living Their being near Why do I stay! No reason, no way! No rhyme to the rhythm! I’m in my own, perpetual prison IN my bars formed form my thought I can’t be what I should be, THAT IS ENOUGH! I have far too much time! With nothing to look forward to, Nothings there to comfort me! But O’ what could this all mean to you, Do you know what I feel?! what I mean?! Nothing true will come to me, I know what love is… As I know so many things! This!! THIS! This is the thing I can’t express. Do you know? What Its like to know, Know of things You’ve never felt or seen, nor done before! I can not say here Can’t use a word, I know To show you what it like to be, To see To feel To smell I am, I am, insanity ………………………………......... Until I break and seal fate, Your would be poet… Eternity

But Never (Forever) My darkness, My Dear

(An ode to my insanity's muse) Where are you? What are you? What I’m I? I know you… I love you And will never speak; why? For love, true love, is but a lie Not that it’s untrue Just O it lasts For all too short a time I will never hold you We will never be I will never teach you Although so much, One such as you, Could learn form me I am alone and alone will and must stay I know that you Like other do Will turn away For this path so hopeful You’ll fall from it now, any day I know I could love you, You know, for now, what it means But I won’t, for you can’t see Truth, it means the same to you As it once did to me I remember, long ago Although it was not long in time When I was just like, you are now, O’ I do wish I that could just die If only you could know If I could lose the words and simply tell If I could show you I could help And not your person dispel I love you, I truly do And whether you now or never know Know one thing, one thing alone It pains me, A pain one such as you, My love Could never hope too know People cry with depression People preaching purpose like fools People lay claim to power I have more than all of these fools I exist, It seems now For truth And this…alone My love, I wish that your True wishes be quelled And you would truly have love So these thoughts they would not swell I hate this all! I’m dieing my dear Not lovely death but a cancerous fear I can't take this more! I cant stand to stay To know, all these things I see…dismayed You can not see me and we can not be, You would not know me or recognize me I know who you are, and I love you so much But never (Forever!) Your lovely true soul will I touch ………………………………...... Find your way my darkness Yours forever, and never… Eternity

An Ode to Fate

Of you, of you My fickle brother I have always been intune I have known you throughout my life Felt your tendrils creeping through It is strange To name you here, To call you out When not graced by your formless face I know now more of you Than I thought could ever be true It’s funny how things fly For at this time, you push me rarely high Like you did when I was young I have learned so much from you Even now, with subtle form you help me see the truth I owe so much, so much to you With pain, and circumstance You give things that I could never reach With out the help of you While I will never know, just how you hail Or whether you are me, or I am you I will now thus pay tribute to you! For every thing you helped me do I now tribute this ode to you ………………………………. Fate

By Lonely Decree

Love goes with longing As bread goes with wine Passion is painful As I look in her eyes Perfectly formed Is her earthly form But deep in her eyes Tis’ where beauty resides I know that her beauty , Doesn’t belong in this place! Nor in my arms, Not even my eyes Yet her rare heart I know, in dismay It is mine Too much, too much Is her beauty For a human like me She can not be here, The goddess with me And though it so pains me I stand by my lonely decree While she would love me And we know we both do I sit here now lonely While she is wasted, On humans like you To the one that deserves more, I haplessly hope for you ………………………………..... Eternity

I must, so sadly, for love…Requiem

Requiem, requiem I dream, I dream I dream of crypts and shadows Of faces dead and bones time striped of marrow I dream, I dream Requiem, requiem Requiem, for faces of the past, Of dreams, and places That no longer last I dream, requiem Requiems I dream For all the living That have yet to pass For all the pains and misery There small live will compress Requiems I dream Dreams I requiem The dream of hope Of Happiness and love I mope! I requiem, (Not to death but life, more fare it seems!) For all of those Who live in a dream And I dream Of love, and those who know what it means For all of you, And for me… Till death sets us free I must, so sadly, for love… Requiem ………………………….. Until the end, Eternity

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So much cut and past!!!!! Only a few pages to go...

A bide Farwell to all the Leaves

In a clearing lavished with leaves In the dark, under stars Brisk air, and gusts of wind My heart my soul Is moving as the blowing trees they bend I see all that I’ve been And all I have become I see the things ahead of me I see them, and my hope recedes I do not need to be here Do not want to stay I hate the living I damn there sun I see things too clearly They seem perverts, every one! I don’t see time, Not as its suppose to seem, I don’t distinguish its little lines The future, the past, Meaningless, trivial at best I see all that, Can come to be, I see the future in facets I see and I believe That all humans would be better off In a grave and feeding the trees I sit amidst the dieing trees I see reflections in a small and mudy stream I see and I reflect Relish the cold Smell the death Of sweet fall So bitterly fresh I sit in awe As this season claims my breath Madness claws It may have the fighting edge ‘Sanity’ (I call it a technicality) Is much more fleeting than it used to be Now that, I know what love is… I also know desire I know so many things, O in so many way I don’t think I can express What its like to be, To think this way I know of things I do not feel I remember feelings, I’ve never felt I know of attractions That me do not compel I have so much, Too much Crammed inside my corporeal skull I truly wish in this season (which I do so love) In this clearing On this vary night Amongst the leaves And In the wind That I could at last Give my body it’s final, fatal dance A dance to deal with a all grieves And to seal time ( I hate its pompous glee!) To seal what is mine… With death’s reprieve ………………………….. I bide Farwell to all the Leaves, Eternity