Mortal Drums

Pumping, beating, under skin, Pulsing with the crimson flush, Beating, pumping, Skin's a tremble at it’s touch Gentle strength, will not fail, falter To respond, will not live, The lies that we, so often run Pumping, beating Beating, pumping Pulsing, pulsing, Always at work, Never gets tired, never overworked But I am tired, And my heart, (Not, that beating drum!) Is weary, torn By need is gloom, (Woes be gone) Wishing silence But the drum beats And on and on, Beats a racket, Beat’s and beat’s, Forever on ……………………… Will it ever be done?

Silent Poets

There is no thing that’s love, There is not one whole truth, This is no spring of life, There no well of death, The one who does not know love, The one who claims he knows it true, Is but the one, the many, Too blind, and deaf, To know any thing in truth You say you don’t know what love is, I say there’s none that do, For love is more than white doves, Far more than drops of midnight dew Love is that, is all, That will for ever be true ………………………………. Not to be forgotten, Always misnamed, The one who calls not, Will always ring it’s name

The Lost Goddess Sequence

A Love that is Dammed Beauty is so queer So wretched So feared So lovely So good So brilliant O NO! I will not give way! No happiness stays But within her eyes! O why, O why! Why is this torture This tearing at heart Once it begins It’s never to far Your mind it is on That beautiful face No wrinkles No blemish in sight And when you are with her Your heart It is light But when she is gone Gone like the rest It will leave you depressed For this, it is love Not that old lie That lies the flesh But the key to the mind A dead key To a dead hope In this world today How I mope How I mope ……………………….. release The Haunt of a Face You haunt me, I see your face, In every glance I hear your voice In a distant laugh I see you here, I hear you there, And for a moment my soul My heart, and all my being Become elate with your coming But I remember, yes, too soon That it is not truly you You are in my mind now, You are a ghost, You haunt my thoughts You own my dreams You were the one, That was more than me ………………………………...... Even now I can not resist your beckon I am yours, as always For the one who is now gone… You still have Me!

Share Your Tears

My arms around you, Comfort you, Your arms around me, Comfort me, Hold you, Love you, As you love me, Together, for once And forever, But never, Will it be Tears, fear, Wishes above all, It would be, We, I think, If I were not me, And you were not you As it is I know I think I fear, That the tide, is nowhere near ……………………… What do you want? Would you dare. To share my tears?

Just another poet (To -----)

Just another love gone by Just another poet, Just another teary eye, Just another poet, Just another lovely girl, To which I give my soul Just another love that’s far, Different from my self, Just another, just one more, Just another poet, Yes it’s love, so true and dear, I love you too, This you should now know, But know too, I have known things, That would’ madden to behold ………………………. Discount me not, For I am yours, To help you when you fall, Tis’ that love O’ singing one, For you I will forever hold

Wishes

I wish ,that I would not… Know you, Anymore I wish that, I would not… See you, Anymore I, wish that, I would not… Hear you anymore I wish that I, would never see.. You cry, Anymore I wish that,I That you, Would never be… Unhappy, Anymore I wish, that, we That you That I, Would never see… Depression, Anymore I wish that, That you, Would never look… To me, Anymore I Wish that, You would never be… Near me, Anymore I wish that we, That I, Could never see… Into your heart, Anymore I wish the pain, Would go away and That, and this, And all our lives, Wouldn’t matter… Anymore I wish, I wish, For all these things, And yet, What matter’s most, I wish… I wouldn’t love you, Forever more

Your Eyes Down

You walk now, Your eyes down, You talk now, Your eyes down, You cry now Your eyes down ………………….. I’m so sorry

To ------

I wish that you knew, For it's not fare this way, I wish that you, Lovely, lovely, you… Could know what you feel Is for any, but not! That your pain need not be wrought I WOULD be there, I would love, I would hold you, In my arms, But we are now separate And that we will stay, For the whole world seems, To be in the way ………………….. Or just our minds, You for your loving, Me for my knowing, That which, Should not be mine… Will not be mine,

Just Leave Me Alone

Just leave me alone, Please, just leave me alone, I don’t need to hear I don’t have that fear Just leave me alone Can’t you just, now, Leave me alone I don’t want to make you to think, to dream Just leave me alone, I fear It would be a trick for me, Just leave me a lone, To make you think I’m here, I'm here for you in this world of the drear Will you not just leave me alone, You others who I hold not dear, Will you not just let me be? Please,O' please, I beg,I beg Just lt me rot here, leave me be Leave my life, leave it to me, Do not tell me what and should, Do not tell me why I'd care, Just leave me alone, Will you not, just leave me alone? …………………………….. I am done here, Leave me be, Please, O’ please... O' I dream A dream of solace

The Sleeping Field

I am one, In a nameless field Not far from the city A cool night, Dim midnight, Around are flecks of dew I lay down, upon a ground Of weeds and condemned-cattle food I am alone, Yet I could not be, More consoled, The trees they sleep, People’s thoughts are meek As they turn and twist in dreams While they slumber, All the world's ordered, neat, And I am happy, To lay, On this meal of the dead, And smile until, This rest meets it’s end …………………………… Save me from the dawn (Of man)

Once forgotten secrets

All my secrets! Let them be told All my Secrets! Let them unfold All my secrets Just them go All my secrets fears, All my secret loves, All my secret senses, And all my secret follies, Let them go, Let them be, All my secret truths, Let the world see All that I know, All that I am, You can have, For it’s worthless to me, ………………………………. When forgotten, You are free

The Shroud of the Shade

The darkness, the shroud That move through the house Through pain, through grace In the haunt of every face It moves through so gently so smooth It come as a breeze An ice of chilling ease Alone in the dark Lonely at night A small person, In a world of such careless might The dark, the shroud It touches, it’s cold It raps you in it’s Reviling folds The dank stench of your life Of all your flesh , Of all of your strife It comes to you quiet It comes with the dark Eternally silent It moves with ease It strikes with out mercy I stabs at the heart It smites with a hammer Of knowledge not taught In the dark, forlorn resolution Of the shade’s icey solution All that which matters is more than just clear What you need, and what you fear What is true to you, and dead Is all that matter When you are touched by he shroud

The Haunt of a Face

You haunt me, I see your face, In every glance I hear your voice In a distant laugh I see you here, I hear you there, And for a moment my soul My heart, and all my being Become elate with your coming But I remember, yes, too soon That it is not truly you You are in my mind now, You are a ghost, You haunt my thoughts You own my dreams You were the one, That was more than me ………………………………...... Even now I can not resist your beckon I am yours, as always For the one who is now gone… You still have Me!

I’m Sick of It

I’m sick of it! Rooms of flesh I’m sick of it! People jumping, running, for a grasp I’m sick of it! Objects of pleasure, pieces of meat I’m sick of it! Playing a game of fool for fool; in defeat I’m sick of it! The boring glazed glances The boasts and the stares The pitiful games, Orgy’s facade I’m sick of the smell The sent of perfumes Pungently fragrant Or synthetic fruits I’m sick of the bullshit The whoa’ fucked who I’m sick of the assholes Who think love's a screw I sick of the bitching From those who arn't fucking But most of all… I’M SO SICK OF CARING FOR YOU! You will not know me or see, But I will know you, Pain that I need; I know it will be, Worse for you, Than for me ……………………………….................. You are never to see, Good bye, good bye, Twas, never; to be?

Light of the Moon

There is no light, Like the light of the moon There is no beauty Like it's dim hue There is no sorrow With her in your eye There no fear When under her sky There is no light, Like the light of the moon The pallid lush Of the world in her touch There is no equal, No fleshy moral thing That can be anything more Than a shadow of her ethereal being ………………………………............ Beneath the moon, I love more than the grave And in this moment My heart is saved

I’m sorry, that forever

Smile dear Do not think Smile dear Have a drink Smile dear Go play goth in crappy clothes Smile dear Just smile, and do not think... Not, of me You don’t know me Love And you can't You don't know me Love Forget, Forget what you've seen Forget what you think Tis' but a shell, You don't know me, I wish you could You, you know... What need not be said You know... What can not be read You know... How you feel But no! Never! I'm sorry But I can't play the game Never! My love it is a shame Never! Could you, will you, should you, take the blame Never! I'm Sorry! That you'll probably see, Nothing, nothing, nothing FOREVER!

Well...

That's it for now, as if any one will read it or care. :)

My Anthem Of the Sanguine Feast

Come fool behold, My malevolent song unfold Hark, the tune that rings Through ever plain In your mortal veins Awe, your veins So lavished with that crimson stain Come to me, Come now here It will not matter if you run now dear Come, come to me Come here And I’ll sing you a song, To end your fear I will sing it to the beat That you wet heart Continues to seek Come hear me sing, Sing the song of the scythe I’ll sing my song to end your strife And quench my thirst for your life The song that wins, As the arteries burst Come hear my pet, My dinner, slave Come to we and with my song Your flavor I will, O’ so savor …………………………… Prepare for the song The sound of the flesh As razor sharp teeth, rip and puncher beneath Prepare for the anthem Of the Sanguine Feast Did you see the fangs? I hope so… Come now Let’s eat!

The Drain of Life

I see the runoff from the storm drain Hear it rushing to the ground I can’t stop beholding This simple act unfolding In the twilit night I watch the water fall down Graceless to the ground I watch it flow over the old concrete And to my self I can’t help but think This is true the nature Of us human beings Once we were pure Small Droplets all so true Unplain and unperceivable Falling through air’s limbo stairs Then we were born And hit the dirty roof of life From crystal drizzle In to a muddy murk Turn into grimy streams Running on shingles of muck! Then it’s down, In time, a drain That has us all entwined Our disgusting bodies combined To form what is like, a rushing river Of murky, unclean, defiance Down that shaft we think were giants! Then we hit the ground And truth becomes much clearer We slowly trek Through a broad path unclear Yet we’re cowards and only move wish others We move in packs for fear! Then down another drain we fall This drain gated, Curved, unsure We fall into the all so putrid depths of age AGE ! The age Of putrid invariety When all will rot in body and brain Then the end When all is one for true We reach the sea NOW we see The truth of all so many things ……………………………….. And then it may Begin again For those of you Too foolish to understand

A question to the average man

Why cant you see! That dark light is free Well, there may be a fee Like your fragile sanity! Lovely lights And happy faces In all the corners of normal places Their minds a run Their plan afoot To live like zombies understood But I must say In that way happy they many stay But how, O how could you live that way! How happy could you stay! Ignorance it can be bliss But then why life would you live?